On Saturday, I noticed that I was riding the anxiety train straight to Hellsville. It was *intense* and I couldn’t put my finger on wtf was going on. I fired up 750words (which I *love*) and did some brain vomiting, and lo and behold! I figured it out! Freewriting for the win!
I have a lot on my plate. I’m teaching for Cosmic Cowgirls, BOD, Life Book, and Angel’s In My Studio. I have two interviews I’m supposed to be writing/video-ing for. I have laundry to put away. Dogs to care for. Personal art/writing stuff to do. Dishes piling up. A studio to finish preparing and decorating (my room of my own at long last!). Social plans to wrangle. Courses to participate in.
And, you know. Sleeping. Eating. Bathing. Walking.
At the beginning of the year, I became very adept at keeping lists. I had a Moleskine day planner and a notebook. Everything went in the day planner and then every evening, I wrote my list of things to do for the following day.
Well, I discovered iCal (I know! I’m slow!) and everything started getting typed in there. There’s no place for a To Do list in iCal (that I’ve found yet) so that list making ceased to be.
When I don’t have a concrete list of things I’m supposed to be working on, everything swirls around in my head like an anxiety whirlpool. I can’t get a mental fix on anything. It becomes overwhelming in no time flat. And I realized that as I was freewriting, but not before because the writing? Helped slow my mind down. Helped me get a fix on what was rising to the surface out of that alphabet soup of omgdoom.
Lists, people. They are teh awesome. The one I made for today has one item left on it and it’s only 3 p.m.
I made this today:
Inspired in part by Cat Caracelo’s Story Threads, my love of trees and my extreme happy over coming Autumn. Autumn is my very favourite time of year, second only to Spring. You can open the windows! You can snuggle! Everything smells amazing! The world explodes with color!
This spread made me think about the things I want to harvest. What’s ready to claim as my very own?
~My studio (working on it)
~A saner schedule (working on it)
~Better self-care (working on it)
~Poetry (working on it)
It’s a good list, eh?