I reached out to my people today, both with a blog post and with a message on Facebook that said:
If you read my blog post today, you notice I’m coming up against some kind of bluesy stuff ~ feeling overwhelmed, feeling bummed about money stuff (car! autobill fiasco! dental appointment for girl child!), the coming winter, other kid drama, etc. etc.). I am trying to pull myself up by the boot straps ~ and I’m succeeding to some degree ~ but if you could spare a hug? I could sure use one. ♥
Fifty three people have stopped in to offer hugs so far + a half dozen personal e-mails + Andrea Schroeder reached out with an offer to give me space in the Creative Dream Circle to work shit out.
*Jaw Droppingly Gobsmacked*
Are you *trying* to make me cry?
*Clutches the Kleenex*
Thank you. Just…wow. I know these are first world problems and I know everyone has stressors and financial woes and stuff going on, but can I just tell you that the way you all reach out to lift me up makes a HUGE difference?
There. I told you. Thank you.
I worked today, and battled tech woes (because I swear the Internetz can smell it when I’m already stressed), but despite those woes, I got a nearly 40 minute video done. The actual spread took almost 2.5 hours. It was pure therapy. Pure. Therapy.
And while I’m not going to lie and tell you I’m dancing around flinging glitter, I will tell you this: I feel like I can cope. I am centered. I’m calm. I know a part of what’s going on for me is circumstantial (overwhelmed, worried about kids, worried about car repairs and dental bills and omgDOOM auto bills), but some is also a decrease in light, thanks to Mother Nature’s need to rest and some more is hormonal, because, dudes:
Hah!
Anyway, here is the video:
And here’s a snapshot
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And that’s it for me for now. I’m going to keep on trying to pull myself up by my bootstraps, but maybe more gently and with more chocolate.
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Big hugs!
aww big big big scrunchy huggs to you xxooxxoo I friggen HATE HATE HATE winter!! it sucks the life right out of me,,, bla bla bla!! But art is truly a lifter upper!! xxoo
Dearest Wonder Effy Wiiiildly Fabulous,
I don’t know if I commented on your fb post… but the first thing that ran through my mind when i read it was WOW,, I LOVE how you ask for support… and speak up to say you’re in need of a hug… that in itself is a wonderful gift YOU give to us… amongst all the other beautimousness of you being you. I hope you’re feeling much better… and feeling the spine tingly yummy hugs coming from all over the world to you, I’m sending a big squeeze you’re way now { { { } } } and it can be reused as many times as it’s needed haha,
love D xoxo
Hi Effy:
I’m so sorry to hear of your hard day. That stinks. I hope it helps at least a little bit to know that you inspired me today. Learning about the book of days process has been so energizing, and the video you posted today was mesmerizing!
Thinking about you on this rainy Ontario day! It is a day to drink a lot of tea and wear cosy socks.
Lois
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