I. I have been working very, very hard but in that way that makes me feel very, very good. Do y’all experience this? I verge with anti-capitalism so it isn’t about money, though my efforts do pay off in that realm. It’s about the sense of accomplishment I derive from the value of my work. It is almost as good as dark chocolate. Fires off in my brain in the same way.
I don’t chase it, though. I don’t push myself to go after it all the time. I let it happen according to the list, and then when the list is done, I rest or frolic. I don’t over-pack my list, either. I’ve learned what my limitations are and I work within them.
I’m feeling really good about this.
II. Speaking of frolicking, I need some.
III. Ontario has opened up to vaccinating those over 40 with the Astrazeneca vaccine and I’m excited about it. I need to get through month-end before I opt-in, though, because I do not want to panic about that month-end list when I’m supposed to be in a blanket fort with Tom Yum Soup and furbabes recovering from the work my immune system will do once I get the vaccine.
IV. My Witch Adjacent is home and healing. Thank you for holding space for me to worry about her yesterday.
V. Frozen spanikopita in my freezer is self-care.
VI. This happened:
She’s for Book Of Days 2021 for the month of May. You can join me here if you want to make her + all the other gorgeousness that’s up in that class.
VII. My cataracts are getting really, really bad. They’re interfering with my *desire* as well as my ability to paint and I need to get on that but executive dysfunction when it comes to dealing with things like these is a real thing that I struggle with. Still. My dad let himself go completely blind unnecessarily before he died, and that is not a road I am willing to go down, so I’m aiming to fix it.
VIII. I may have unfairly judged someone. It happened last year, and I did a very typical INFJ door slam on them because I didn’t have the bandwidth for anything else. I’ve been thinking about it for days – like, a lot. It’s been weighing on me that I need to clear the air and make amends.
I girded my loins and reached out to ask if we could talk things over and the answer was yes.
IX. Grace. It’s a lovely thing.
Nine feels like a good place to stop today.
Grace is a beautiful thing.
I’m glad Renee is home healing, continued good sent her way.
Your painting is beautiful I want to try making her.
Good for getting on the cataract removal, my mom had one eye done,it made a world of difference for her. She intends on having the other done soon.
She’s going up in BOD2021 on May 1st. <3
I feel in a similar space as you right now, I’m weeding out what doesn’t need to be, and filling it with what i want..
I’m glad she’s recovering.
I’m glad the answer was yes.
Me, too. <3
I love this painting. I must have missed something about Renee, but hope she gets better soon. Is not wanting to deal with certain things a trauma response? There are times when I have a hard time with stuff like this and I’m curious if it’s a trauma response.
Yeah, avoidance is definitely a trauma response. I’m not quite ready to tackle that piece of my trauma just yet, but that time is coming. <3
That spread, oh my lawdy wordy that spread! It is scrumptious!!!
I love the feels of accomplishment. It’s very much like a drug for me in a way. I love knowing I got things on my list slayed.
Slaying a list is the best!!
GRACE is such an all encompassing word that can bring forgiveness. I have been out of my studio for 3 weeks due to surgery and today I spent 30 minutes sitting at my table going thru all the wonderful classes I’d printed out placing them in various journals …. a healing wind connected with me. Your April postings have been fulfilling for me…much love, many thanks. and P.S. get those cataracts taken care of, mine were done 15 years ago…simple, easy surgery and so necessary!
I can’t wait to get this things ripped off my eyes. It’s such a drag!!
My rescue mom had hers done in February. She’s amazed at how clearly she can see. She said before surgery everything looked dingy and yellowed, but now things are brighter.
Grace is a beautiful thing.
Grace is life. <3
I used to take executive dysfunction out for lunch all the time. We’ve been seeing less of each other lately, and I’m not going to lie, I’m happy about that. But I get it, I’ve probably been to the doctor more times this year than I have in the 20 years prior, and it’s not easy. I literally throw myself out the door some days.
That lady you made is gorgeous and the more I look at people’s art journals the more I want to do some wine and jammies Amazon shopping 😁
Yesssssss. Come to the colorful side, Nicole! We have cookies.
Whata fabulous page for BOD May!
Right? It was so much fun!!
Ah Grace, yes that is a good thing.
Your picture is gorgeous, BOD is such a great place to be, I just couldn’t afford the course again this year, when I didn’t finish any of last year’s (and have many outstanding subs to many groups)…but I shall be back I promise!
I’m glad you’ll be back. <3
This is so beautiful – can’t wait for May! Elle xx
Yay!! xoxoxox
I love that painting. Yay for Grace. I want to hear more. Thank you for loving me up and sending magic my way for Sigourney. I love you. x
Cataract surgery is amazing. I had it 11 years ago and my vision is better than it was when was young and nearsighted…those little implants are magic! You will be amazed at your new world when you look at it!!