Noticing What’s Beautiful

I. I went to a pottery “date night” last night with my friend, Jay, and we had a blast. To wrap up our “date night experience”, our host set up a “Ghost” moment. It was *hilarious*. Check it out.

@effywildLIFE GOAL UNLOCKED

♬ original sound – Effy Wild

II. The host, Paul, is the same instructor that took me through my second round of Level Two Wheel, so he was known to me, and *I adore him*. He makes me laugh, makes me feel confident and open and curious, and has been a wonderful part of my clay journey so far. I’m a fan. Watching him do the wheel demonstration yesterday was *proof* that I need more than one go at a thing in order to figure it out since, even after two rounds of level one, something just clicked. I watched, nodded, and then proceeded to throw the best pots I’ve ever thrown. It was effortless. It was *pure joy*

III. I still have a long way to go, but I really feel like I’m getting there. Centering, opening, widening are now a breeze, though my consistency isn’t there yet. The bowl was super fun to make because it was the first *intentional* bowl I’ve ever made.

Doing the “Ghost” moment, though. That was lifegoals.

I like me as a potter in training.

IV. There’s a lot of healing going on over here. Connections I once thought I couldn’t live without are being severed. Access to me is being denied. Other connections are being nurtured and forged. Some losses are not feeling quite so much like losses at this point. I’m in full possession of some healthy anger. I’m saving my grace for *myself* for the moment, and woosah. That feels timely and good.

V. I met with the witches yesterday as well. We spent three hours together, live on Zoom. We talked about alternatives to tarot when we’re feeling like everything is a sledgehammer to the head and I shared some of my favourites. We did a quick oracle demo where the card I pulled made us all laugh because it was a not so subtle reminder that I’m on the right track. I got to share how the process we undertake in Moonshine works for me – all the seeding we do through research and wondering and taking in inspiration and how that can lead to wandering the house on a full moon in Taurus, preparing for that day’s ceremony by preparing food and tea, staying open and curious to what wants to come through and BOOM. Someone shows up as a power that wishes to be engaged. Here she is.

Mmmmmmmmmm, gold leaf.

VI. I’ve spent today clawing my house back from weeks of vertigo plus year-end and that has been incredibly satisfying. I just finished the main room and the kitchen, and like I always do, I lit some candles and some incense to bless my space. Little rituals. They matter so much.

I even put a Quiche Florentine in the oven to have for brunch. It was delicious and a lovely reward to sit down to once the bulk of the work was done.

I’m going to do some laundry this afternoon, but not much else house-wise. I’ve done enough today.

Tomorrow, I’ll do the bathroom and the studio and I’ll start my week off with a clean house.

VII. I want to paint today, so I’m going to make that happen, though a nap might want to happen first.

VIII.

My constant companions. I’m feeling enormous gratitude for them lately as we enter the colder months. We’re all loving the blanketfort. The bond between them is so tender and adorable to witness. I don’t know how I got so lucky, but I do so love my little pack.

IX. Random, I know but there have been so many hard times lately, and so many bad days, so I want to make sure I’m acknowledging the lovely and tender and joyful and good. This is not about bypassing anything. This is about allowing myself to fully experience all that is true in each moment.

X. That’s me, today, noticing what’s beautiful.

Learning Experiences

I. This is post 12 of 15 that are due for my blog along. I’m just typing that out so I can get how many posts I need to catch up on to make my 30 posts in 30 days.

II. Monday, I went to my first pottery class. I have to admit that I had a few difficult moments because the instructor seemed a little whelmed and occasionally slightly exasperated. I was really struggling with centering and opening because these techniques were demonstrated from about 15 feet away and I am half-blind (literally), so it was hard to see hand positions, etc. I did my best on my own, but did eventually have to ask for some one-on-one guidance (which, while hard for me to ask for, is included in the price of the class).

III. So, anyway, at one point after assisting me, he said to someone across the room that “high energy people” tend to have difficulty with throwing pottery because it’s “so zen” and I started having bad feels about myself, because, yo. I am high energy. I am enthusiastic. I am excitable, and I love to learn. I was giggly and upbeat and totally into it even when I was making flop after flop and getting mud everywhere including my hair, all over my clothes, and on the floor around me. I was in full-on happy child mode which is exactly what I’d hoped to get out of the experience, so I’m not going to lie. This commentary, even if it wasn’t directed at me, stung a bit butandalso being in that state is extremely vulnerable for me so I could very well have been misreading/projecting. 

Butandalso…

III. The owner stopped by my station at one point and was the absolute opposite experience for me. Zero sense of his being whelmed or impatient. Helped me figure out what I was doing right and what I was doing wrong. Demonstrated alternative hand positions since I was struggling with the ones I’d been shown initially. Absolutely oozed kindness. Left me feeling empowered. Inner kid felt a lot better after that encounter, and you know what? That says a lot about the quality of these two teaching styles.

Let me always strive to provide the latter kind of experience for my students. Let me always check in with myself before I teach to ensure that I am not whelmed or impatient because our inner kids show up to these classes and it is way too easy for them to misinterpret an instructor’s state as being our fault somehow.

DULY NOTED ALSO THAT I CAN TURN ANYTHING INTO A LEARNING EXPERIENCE.

IV. Despite the mixed feelings, I didn’t let it ruin my night, and ultimately, after I took a deep breath and reminded myself that this guy wasn’t “doing me a favour” by instructing me – I paid for this instruction – I had a fucking blast, and over the course of the last two days (yes, this experience has taken up some bandwidth in my traumatized brainmeats for sure) I’ve concluded that if my enthusiasm makes me a difficult student or if I’m not “zen enough” for this particular instructor, or if learning will be harder for me because I’m not a quiet little mouse of a zen potter, well, I can live with that.

I walked home after class absolutely covered in clay. I’ve picked up a twelve-pack of bar towels and two aprons because your girl is a VERY MESSY POTTER.

V. Speaking of teacher/student experience, I am taking a beginner’s drawing class (truly for beginners) from New Master’s Academy and in the introduction to the fundamentals course, the instructor talked about thinking of the part of ourselves that wants to learn to draw as a wee soul fragment to whom we must be extraordinarily kind and with whom we should be extraordinarily gentle. My whole body melted and I felt super relaxed and inspired and this amazing teacher will get all my money from now all based on that one little pep talk – one that my students know I give all the time. Thank you Steve Huston. You are a lovely human.

And that’s all I’ve got for now because I’m saving some thoughts for later as I attempt to catch up on my Artfully Wild Blog Along where I’m blogging every day (ish) in September. You are welcome to join me. 

New Horizons

OH HEY I’M ABOUT TO GO TO POTTERY CLASS.

*So Excite*

Meanwhile, today was like this:

And just look at this glorious background!

And here’s me all shined up like a new penny and ready to go out into the world to do something exciting and new!

YES THAT IS MY SUPER STOKED EXCITED FACE!

I’ll report back in tomorrow. xo